Leaving Everything Behind...?

[Penelope]

Today was the last real day of school for me. And I'm so sad now.
I don't wnat to leave my friends behind-- most of us are split in half between two high schools, and even though we can (and will) get together outside school, it's just not the same. I wish we could see eachother every day and just enjoy eachother's company like we have for the last few years. I don't know what I would do or where I would be without them...
I didn't know most of my best friends I have now until seventh grade, when I met much nicer and caring people in honors classes (which I'd found for the first time).
Honestly, I think that if I hadn't met them and became friends with them, I probably would have killed myself before now. I started becoming really depressed during and after sixth grade due to being left out and bullied constantly, and had thought about dying more than once, because I was very near convinced that I really was just stupid and weird and worthless.
But then when I found people who really loved me, those thoughts disappeared, and I became a much happier, more outgoing person.
I'm basically who I am today because of my friends, who are the first real friends I have ever had. And I never, ever want to leave them.
And... there's a lot more I could say, and if anyone really wants to know, you can PM me.
Why does real friendship have to be so painful...?

[Wilbur]

because then things would be too easy. :c i am sorry about that, the bulliing thing, it is never easy. and believe me i have been down the path before. not the killing yourself part, but people picking on me. its never easy. If you want to talk, you can PM me if you ever need anything

[Penelope]

Thanks, Wilbur.

[Master Splinter]

I saw this back on DWOW and I'll say the same thing again I'm sorry you are upset about your leaving of friends. It'll be ok though. PM me if you need more comfort or anything. I'm always here for you and everybody here.

[The Warden]

Please pm me. :c I feel for you, because I've had a lot of the same thing happen to me. :c

[Kari Kamiya]

aww *gives Penelope a big hug*

[Penelope]

Yeah, there's a lot more about this than what I'm posting here, but I'd best not make it public. I trust you all enough to Pm you, though...

[Master Splinter]

Say it on PM if you wish to me and I'm willing to answer to you. We vuv you hun and we all are sorry that this happens to you.

[Shanti]

I've been there, and it seriously sucks to see someone going through the same thing. A close friend of mine moved to Florida a month ago, on top of that I just graduated and my friends are all ging to different colleges and everything. So I know were you're coming from, and I know how bad it feels. But if your friends really love and care about you, and you feel the same, then it will work out. Everybody just needs to put forth a little extra effort to stay in touch and keep seeing eachother, and it will be worth it. And beleive me the way you feel about your friends is the way I feel about mine, no joke they're probably the only thing that's ever kept me happy, or sane. You just need to have faith that things are going to work out, and try as hard as you can to assure you guys don't end up drifting apart. *hugs you* I'm sure you and your friends will all be okay.
As for why friendship is so painful, there's really no answer to that XP, but remember, it caues you joy as well ^^